“Come on. I want to get you a Christmas gift. Isn’t there something you want?”

“I’ve got you. That’s more than I could have imagined this time last year.”

“And you really didn’t get anything last year?”

“I got my stomach pumped… on Christmas eve.”

“Oh”

“It’s ok. I’m clean now. Santa came to visit me in the hospital.”

“Santa?”

“Well, not the real Santa. I just call him that. I don’t know his name. He was some kind of preacher or something. He talked to me about forgiveness, second chances and starting over. He introduced me to the women’s center. That was a real turning point for me. I’ve been clean for four months now. I’m sorry. I know I should have mentioned this earlier, but I just didn’t know how to bring it up.”

“Four months is long a time.”

“It’s a personal record for me.”

“That’s fantastic. So isn’t there something you want for Christmas?”

“I don’t make wishes any more.”

“Is it ok if I wish to be with you this Christmas?”

“I think that would be a wonderful wish.”

“So why don’t you wish for something?”

“I’ve just learned that sometimes we’re better off when we don’t get what we ask for.”

“I guess that could be. What did you wish for last year?”

“To die”

26 thoughts on “A Christmas Wish”
  1. I think his wish to be with her was very cute. Is it okay that I projected femininity onto the suicide-wisher? Going back and re-reading, I can’t tell why I thought she was a she.

    Minor typo – paragraph five and final paragraph are missing a period

    1. Thanks for catching the typos. I’ll go fix them now.

      In my mind, when I wrote it, I had the suicide-wisher as a woman. Thus, the reference to the women’s center. I’m glad it didn’t seem too confusing for anyone who read it the other way.

  2. That’s deep. That’s a lot of wisdom for a young Christian. It’s taken me a life time to understand that some of the best things we ever get are the things we didn’t want. Nice.

  3. Found this via Twitter. Thanks for sharing – very touching, and that last line just hits so hard. I hope your Christmas wishes are happier – looking at the photo of you and your lovely family, I’m sure they are 🙂 God Bless.

    1. Thanks for stopping by and commenting, Sarah. I am definitely looking forward to Christmas and have been very blessed. Have a Merry Christmas!

  4. Yes – if I had wished to die the year before, I think I would feel the same!

    I am glad they had found each other.

    Think what I liked most about this FF is the style. You didn’t give the people names or specify their gender. They could be anyone, anywhere. Which – to me – seemed very clever because this conversation could happen to anyone. Hope that makes sense. x

  5. Beautiful in its simplicity. The dialogue is credible and flows easily. The partner’s desire to spend time with the narrator for Christmas, expressed as a wish, is charming. The coup de grace, the last line, is delivered in a lovely stillness which emphasizes its punch. Thanks for this.

    Take care,
    JC

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